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I'm a 35 year old gay guy, living along the Dorset coast of England, Although being HIV+, it is other health issues that can make every day a challenge, thus I do tend to have a good attitude and out look towards life;
'Life is too short, so make the most of it while you can',
if you sit around feeling sorry for yourself and not getting out
meeting people, new friends as well as old acquaintances,
and doing the things you want to do,
then you only have yourself to blame.
I have dark hair, blue eyes (although I wear glasses). I am 5 ft 8 tall, on a good day, and weigh approx. 12.5 stone. I have a slightly hairy chest and a kind of OK average build. I'm not in to body piercings or tattoos, that is to say I don't have any myself, but,
provided they are not too over the top or garish, I don't mind them on others, infact sometimes I find it quite a turn on.
I think that kind of more or less physically describes me and so
for the emotional bit:~
Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private,
I'm not a person who is easy to get to know and understand.
I am extremely sensitive but generally disinclined to show it,
(I've been hurt too many times in the past).
Because of this I allow only a special few into my inner world.
I am cautious and somewhat mistrustful of those I don't know
until I 'sniff them out'. Being very, very instinctive and intuitive
I usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though I may be unable to clearly articulate why I feel as I do.
My feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.
Having a powerful need for deep emotional involvement I form very intense emotions and attachments.
I can be possessive and often jealous (in a good way) of anyone
or anything that I perceive as a threat to my bond with someone
I love. When I commit myself to someone it is with wholehearted devotion and expect complete loyalty in return. To merge with a person I love is a very deep emotional experience and therefore
I do not handle separations easily. I am not inclined to turn the other cheek but to retaliate if at all possible and harbouring
grievances and resentments for a long time, forgiveness does not come easy.
What ever I do is done with passion and fervour
and very often to the extreme. Nothing is simple.
In life as in a relationship I am either hot or cold, never lukewarm about anything. I am either 100% involved in something or else it doesn't exist for me at all. Rarely am I emotionally detached and objective. I am immensely strong willed and my tenacity
in pursuing my objectives often borders on being obsessive.
I love mysteries and am deeply attracted to the hidden, dark, secret side of life. I never take things at face value and am always
probing beneath the surface of people and situations to discover what is really going on.
I tend to be more of a cynic than an idealist.
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