hide me away... archives - weight Friday, June 28, 2002   yum. the thought of powdered milk for breakfast excites me immensely -_o;;; i wonder how fattening it is? my stomach is making noises again. its so goddamn silent...i dont know how long i can stand this... posted by osseous keloid 6:07:02 PM   i ate. -_o;; two mouthfuls of beef schnitzel. two chips. and then i sat. or rather i stared into space and felt vacant. i wonder when the occupant of my house moved out? posted by osseous keloid 5:59:14 PM   i dont feel like opening my mouth and talking. my lips feel sorta numb...i can't be bothered to pretend either............. what does it matter? its not like heather actually cares if i go to dinner or not....she just doesnt wanna go alone -_o;;; posted by osseous keloid 5:30:11 PM   my frame of mind today is not very good -_-;;;;;;; its very bad in fact ;_; i feel cold and shivery now. maybe taking the prozac with food helps some? i havent felt nauseous yet. but then i havent eaten dinner yet either and i took that shit later today so maybe will take longer -_-;;;;;;; who knows? words seem extremely pointless today...vacant and empty -_-;; makes me feel like sewing my mouth up. posted by osseous keloid 5:27:28 PM   i heard a bang on the wall...is that just a coincidence or an indication of me being selfish again? -_-;;; how can i tell? he must be ecstatic. he's terrified me into playing music in my room. i havent touched my stereo in so long... ;_; posted by osseous keloid 5:22:30 PM   Today's Score : 77.5 If your score is 50 or higher, consider printing the results of your test to show it to your doctor. ~__________________________________~ yesterdays was 73.75 -_-;;; posted by osseous keloid 5:19:17 PM Tuesday, June 25, 2002   i hate this internet addiction i have. i hate the way i rely on it so much ...and the way that i cling to it. i really need to get a life that or else i will just sleep all the time. posted by osseous keloid 12:31:08 AM   if i think about it...this has been happening, slowly but surely since at least last year. i feel as though i am shutting down... i guess in a sense that is what i am doing. and i don't want to care anymore. posted by osseous keloid 12:13:15 AM Monday, June 24, 2002   its been almost a month since i wrote in here. hello. how are u? fine i guess? well...since i last wrote in here i have been back to see my doctor and also i'm on 40mg of fluoxetine (prozac) a day now...wow...exciting. posted by osseous keloid 11:53:10 PM   hello. i didnt write in here for a long time. but it is easier to write in here than if i manually upload the files and also doing that way take up more space on pelikanol.net :P posted by osseous keloid 11:51:04 PM