The Bouncing Ball

It is just like meeting a stranger

We fall in love

Then we float on clouds

Then our feet touch the ground with a bang, pop, splat

Pops almost broke my foot hold there

Then the FEARS big time

Then the, I am not so sure I can do all this

Then the, gezzzzzz, this can of worms is getting pretty hard to hold on to,

Maybe I should put them back in water for the fish

I think I will take my bottle of water and loaf of bread

Lock myself in a room where no one can find me

Crying uncontrollably and wanting to touch and feel once again

To, oh oh what if I do...to, oh oh what if I don't

To my god, I love this child so much....don't they know how I hurt?

Do they hurt like this to??

To, ok ok enough is enough

To, my guts are hanging out again

To, I AM DIEING here

can anyone here me

Can anyone see me?

To, ok ok I’ll just send one card

No maybe just one-phone call

No what if they reject me again

Ouch dag-nab-it I am a human

No I cannot take any more of this.

No I cannot live with out my child

Follow me, follow me, I am a bouncing ball

I am up, I am down,

I am in, I am out,

I am upside down; I am crazy,

I am happy... I am everywhere

They shoot horses don’t they?

Hang on they say.... you mean there is more????

Give me a blanket for my head

A teddy for my arms

A hug

A big hug from anyone

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