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Matt Jones
My first Boyfriend I met him on the chat lines at Gay.Com
before they became the huge beat they are today he was and still is one of the most beautiful people you could meet, he is honest genuine and so loving, we talked for many months online then started ringing each other every day, I'll never forget the day he said he was falling in love with me, I was shocked and scared, I went quiet for a little while (I had felt the feelings growing in myself), but was not expecting him falling for me, he apologized for getting heavy, he thought he had made a mistake, I told him he hadn't and that I was feeling the same, so our relationship had moved to another level. Matt was living in Brisbane with a guy, there relationship had died out over the years, so they pretty much did there own thing and remained friends, I knew this as he had already told me about him, and he was also aware of me.
We arranged to meet up in the coming weeks, he was going home to Geelong so he was gonna stop in Sydney over night, then come back to Sydney en route home to Brisbane. I met him
after work, he had spent 9 hours in Sydney as he arrived here early in the morning, and I was at work. I was terrified yet excited about finally meeting him. We met in Pit Street Mall, it was wonderful being with him. We didn't sleep together that night he went to the spare room, although I did want to (as did he) but I was terrified as you are your first time, he was the "Perfect Gentleman" to coin the corny phrase he never approached me in any way sexually anyway when he came back to Sydney we made love that night it was the most beautiful experience it was passionate lovelly I couldn't begin to explain the experience.
Matt moved to Sydney as did Dennis the guy he was living with they got separate apartments (on top of each other), which was uncomfortable for me but I trusted and knew he was not doing anything with Dennis, I was to meet Dennis eventually
Matt and I were together for a short time, he had his problems and I had mine, as I mentioned earlier I had been saving to bring mum to the wedding, after it ended I had always said to mum I was still gonna bring her here, I wanted so much to let her see Australia to maybe understand why I wanted to spend my life here this had been arranged even before I had started the relationship with Matt. So the date was set for Mam & Terry to come over, I wasn't out with my family, Matt and I spent most of our time together I said I still wanted matt to come over, I would tell my mum he was my best friend, he wouldn't because he didn't want to cause problems for me, Mum was here for 3 weeks, again I made mistakes, I hardly spoke to Matt, I was so wrapped up with mum being here, was with her constantly. During this time Matt was suffering from Depression & Anxiety, he sent me an Email saying I had treat him
unfair, badly, and selfishly (which sadly I cannot disagree with in any way) So he ended it, I was so confused with everything, I was having problems with my Permanent Residency I had no experience in relationships my whole world was up in the air, Matt being the person he is came to see me when my parents had gone I guess he had realized he had acted without really thinking of the consequences, I was confused and had
decided I needed to experience some of life. All Matt wanted to do when he came over was to take me in his arms, he didn't know what to do, I was distant so we went our separate ways, he went to America met
someone else I continued my life alone, I talked to Matt and his new partner on Gay.com but we went
different directions (we are now back in contact, after I felt compelled to get in touch with him after 4 years), I think your first love always commands a big part of your heart, Matt was mine (I don't count Adrienne as I really don't think I could of loved her like I thought I did because I was lying, lying to her and lying to myself)
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