Is love an emotion that can be there one second and gone the next?

Love is a very funny thing. Sometime we never realize that it can be such a powerful tool. It can manipulate and destroy people. Not that everyone uses this power in such a way, but there are a few that do. Today was not a good day. It was today that I realized how evil love could be. But it's not always the person's fault if they don't know how to deal with love.
I believe that there are people meant to be with each other. I personally believed that she would be the one. She believed it too, but was fooled by another person's false love. Now, this other person was friendly and she believed that they wanted to show her love. I believe that and I will never stop believeing that. Now that our relationship is over, I wonder what is in our future. I say ours, because I still love this girl to death. In my heart, she will always be.

I pray that she gets married and has kids and a loving husband in the future. I wish that could be me but reality points to no. I will never wish anything bad to her because I still love her. I will always love her. But she needed something more and I couldn't provide it to her. Now I know I'm getting sidetrack but I believe that I need to express myself this way. I really have no "outlet" to talk too. Well, I have one person now to talk too because I know of another person who feels the same pain I feel.

I didn't know what to do so I decided that I needed to do something productive. I chose to learn a little html and create a sorta diary online so others may read it. Well, I don't know who else would read it besides me but thats besides the point. It provides an outlet and it takes my mind off the pain.

Is it unmanly to cry? I wish I could just get on my knees and cry my eyes out. True it would ease the pain a little but I can't do that. If I were possibly a girl I could do that, (please take no offense) but I guess its some sorta guy law that says, thou shall not cry. I say screw that law. I need to cry one of these days but I doubt I ever will. I guess the only thing that is keeping me from blwoing a leak in my eyes is this web page. Wow, I have been doing this for one whole day, whoopde doo. And I still haven't figured out color yet, lol. Maybe one day I'll get that down but for now, i just wanna focus on other things.

I find html has a deja vu effect on me. God, I doubt I spelled that right but I don't care. Well, its sorta rewarding in a way because I am a computer science major and I like using the computer for lots of things. Well, if you read this, please e-mail me at [email protected] and tell me what you think. Please, only positive things. No negatives.

Here is a short list of other web pages either I made or have used other tools to make. Well, I thank you for taking the time to read this.