My Poems 11 - 20

Recollections  Society  Lilu  Isolation  Yen  Reality  Watch  Max   Dot, dot, dot, dash?  Resolution Revolution

Recollections

My memory protects me
From things best forgotten
But lapses in this defense
Leave me suffering the pain
Of the childhood struggle

These events I then blame
For my current psychosis
Though this does little to comfort me
As I once again attempt to suppress
These forgotten memories

 

Society

It is only through composition
That I can express my fears
My emotions remain bottled
Until I reach for the feather

I cannot communicate
With those who surround me
Instead I remain hidden within myself

I know in myself
Such fear is irrational
Yet this does little to comfort me

I struggle on, trying my best
To cope with what is thrown at me
Feeling perhaps that
Slowly
I am improving

 

Lilu

I sit waiting
As the boredom starts
To infiltrate my mind
Wondering what to do
Each option
As mind numbing as the next

I seek solace but can find none
No matter where I look
It's at times like these, I imagine
People seek darker pleasures
To fill the void
That has become their life

But nothing can replace
The love we lack
And this realization
Drives so many of us
To our end

 

Isolation

My childhood depression returns once more
Crushing my mind
Driving out the last threads of my sanity

Each time it pushes me to the edge
Taking again my confidence
Forcing me closer to ending it al.
But fortunately I've never cut deep enough

 

Yen

I cry out for that
Which I deny myself
Yearning, craving...
Will I hold out this time?

I can only hope that soon
The desire will pass; as my body
Adjusts to its new diet

 

Reality

Sometimes I find myself
Questioning the nature
Of my own reality
Which does nothing for my sanity
People messing with my mind
That is, if they exist at all

Characters of my own creation
Cross from surreal to real
The divisions becoming blurred
As I lose my sanctity

 

Watch

A very modern depression
Plagues my mind
Bringing with it those familiar urges
But I know they will not help
And so I resist

I try to put them out of my mind
But the loss remains
And I can only hope it will be vanquished

 

Max

What makes us special?
Why would God care
Any more for us
Than we do for insects?

Life fascinates me
I have no desire to get stuck
In a rut of endless monotony

I want to experience
The full variety of life
And will meet death with a similar excitement

 

Dot, dot, dot, dash?

I hope that finally
I have left the darkness behind me
Though each time before
Was always the last
Slowly I have improved
And may have finally succeeded

I must now embrace the light
And venture out into life
I know it will be hard
But I must persevere

 

Resolution Revolution

I feel I must finally accept
That what which I am
Settling down in the bleak
Though bliss seemed so close at hand

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