PLAYING
IN THE MUD
by Meindert Gijzen
This article appeared in "Reports from the field", an American newsletter devoted to the Time, Space and Knowledge vision.
In this article I will try to describe some aspects of TSK that make it
so special for me. I will start with a psychological analysis of the way that I
perceive many people dealing with what is called "spirituality". I
have observed this trend up to a certain extent in myself and see it sometimes
even more pronounced in others. After that I will describe how, for me at least,
the
TSK-approach offers a refreshing perspective that overthrows our usual
conceptions and ways of acting upon things. I do not want to give the impression
that "I know" all this. This is not more than a description of some
intuitions and conjectures and others might possibly view this very differently.
I will be interested to hear from them.
Anyone interested in TSK (or any other kind of 'spiritual' activity) will
sooner or later be confronted with the fact that, however deep and refreshing
some of the resulting meditative or 'transcendental' experiences may be, just
taking time for meditation does not necessarily alleviate life's problems.
Sometimes, in fact, these problems may actually seem to become worse, larger or
more intense. 'How can that be?' - one might ask. For most people that I know,
the initial motivation for starting any kind of 'spiritual practice' is usually
a deep wish to somehow rise above life's daily bothersome affairs and ultimately
attain some 'higher' level of being, regardless of how it is called (heaven,
enlightenment, great knowledge etc.).
In the beginning of any path that we follow, we probably succeed in
tasting a relaxed, peaceful quality. How else could it be, if we consider the
fact that most people are so completely immersed in the usual worries, conflicts,
daydreams and struggles of ordinary life that there hardly remains any time left
for contemplation and reflection at all? If people finally succeed in creating
an open space where they can breathe freely, have a taste of relaxation and
restore contact with the immediacy of time, surely this must feel like a
While this development takes place, gradually and almost imperceptibly,
there often also arises another, parallel development. It has to do with a
growing sense of frustration, embitterment even. For although our self-images
may have been bolstered up, at the same time, under the surface of this
seemingly self-confident attitude, a deep seated emotional insecurity and the
accompanying anxiety and vulnerability still continue to exist. What is
It is this mud that we are generally trying to avoid in life. We resist
it, even despise it, especially since crawling through mud is quite at odds with
what might be expected from someone who is 'spiritually developed'. The
liberating viewpoint that is unfolded in the TSK-books however, points out how
Great Knowledge encompasses literally everything. This means that mud and sky,
good and evil, the beautiful and the ugly, heaven and hell can all be
By studying and practicing along these lines I arrived at the, for me at
that time, remarkable discovery that 'the personal is the universal': Where-as
before I had the idea that one should go beyond all these muddy affairs to seek
out silence, space, serenity etc., it became more and more clear to me that it
is by, wholeheartedly and with full awareness, 'penetrating into' the texture of
mud itself, that a transformative process takes place. It is as if small bubbles
of air start to form in it, changing the quality of the mud, making it lighter,
less sticky, less repulsive. Continuing in this way it has become evident how
the 'lower' aspects of experience may actually become the source of a totally
new and refreshing 'knowledge'. On the other hand, it has become totally clear
that denying and escaping from the 'mud-quality' of existence will make life
even harder and more superficial. We may even develop a 'perfect neurosis' in
which we become sealed off so perfectly from the deeper aspects of experience,
that only Time itself has the power to release us from our cocoon.
I would like to end up, half-jokingly, to play with words a little bit in
the way that is often done in the TSK-books: If we totally accept the mudness of
experience, we may develop enough mudness-ability to play in the mud without
being bothered by it any more, like children who don't mind the rain or bad
weather, because they are enjoying themselves.