3-12-02

I find myself emailing Fred a lot anymore. I usually talk about how much I feel for you, how great you are, how much I miss you. But he doesn't get it. I don't think he knows how much I really love you. I don't think he knows how great you really are. Jennie Lee is on his mind lately (I showed him a part of this site were I talked about her, and how I pushed her away for you), and all he does is talk about her. Every day he tells me to try to find her, and talk to her again. He tells me that you moved on and so should I. That she was really hot and probably has hot friends. That I should be with her, and I should hook him up with one of her friends. He doesn't get it though. To stop him from nagging me, I did IM her friend to tell her hi. She relayed a message back and I eventually gave her my sisters P.O. Box so she could mail me a letter. I got it yesterday. It kind of made me happy. She told me that she missed me a lot and things like that. At times it's nice to know that someone still cares about me. She wants me to mail her back. I don't know if I'm going to. I guess I would feel guilty? I am not interested in her and I won't ever be. I'm not looking for someone to come along, just for you to. But I have always felt guilty about doing nothing. About talking to Denise about her ex boyfriend. Or anyone else. And it surprises me that you could so easily approach someone and get in a relationship with someone. But I guess you don't feel for me the way I feel for you. It's hard at times, but I understand. Maybe I will mail her. It wold be nice to have her as a friend again. And if she feels something for me, I won't need to push her away. I will just ignore her feelings for me.


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