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Agoraphobic II: Insight
Afraid of being seen
Afraid of confrontation
Hating being judged
Fearing my reaction
Loathing those around me
My world's begun to deflate
Angry and frustrated
Fearing the extent of my hate
Hating strangers, hating crowds
Hating cities, and their lights
Hating the fact that I hate
All but solitude and the night
Before, my life held only fear
But from that fear, hatred grew
All other emotions were consumed
Leaving me empty through and through
Agoraphobic, hiding from the world
My life has slowly become unfurled
Self-exiled, living the hermit way
In limbo, I've thrown it all away
Alone, I've begun to self-analyze
Why I hate the sun, and fear conversation
Finding no answers, losing all hope
Sinking deeper and deeper into depression
There is no way back out of here
Believe me when I say I've tried
I have faded right out of existence
Considering whether I should commit suicide
Agoraphobic, totally alone
I built these walls stone by stone
Now I wish these stones would decay
Enough to let me escape someday
Agoraphobic, can't deal with life
Is it time for me to use this knife?
Or is it time to try and fight?
I seek the answers, but have no insight